In my study of antiquity, humans are
categorized. There are slaves and there are masters, haves and
have-nots, the military elite and the child rearing woman. The bards,
the artisans and the whores. And I wonder, at what point does a
small isolated party of like minded people become stamped in time as
a record of something. A record of something bigger than them and
yet still a brief image of a life they were a part of. Is it more
important to note the patterns shared by a group of potters and the
development of their craft, is that really the summation of their
life? Or is history actually told in the conversations that were had
between the time in which each pot dried, and the quiet and exhausted
sighs that were released when the time came to close the shop at
night. I wonder then where a small but pleasant weekend in our
contemporary world would fit. I wonder how the small joys extracted
from playing a board game around a wooden table after consuming a
warm meal and being simmered down by wine will ever make its way into
a history. An enquiry about what it means to be human today in all
its fleeting glory. If the feeling of heavy bedsheets and how hot
the teapot feels at the start against my palm will wind up being of
any importance, because is it not that which makes us who we are? The
smallest sensations surrounding the movement of our hands, reaching
for another's fingers. The careful and precise way in which you cut
onions and look away ever so slightly to attempt to not cry. The
smell of coriander against the tip of a knife and how you stop,
inhale generously and keep cutting. How graciously we all enjoy each
others companies and let the deep and rumbling sound of laughter
escape our throats without stopping to wonder if this is what it
means to be human today. And for a second in time I am transfixed,
because I don't rememer reading about a Mycenaean bard with a
penchant for comedy and a particular dislike of grapeseed oil, but
for some reason that is all I see. I don't remember when the brown
haired soldier in the phalanx turned to his shorter but more refined
comrade and quietly whispered a jest, but all at once, in a consuming
and terrifying emotion that is not my own I try so hard to remember this. For their sake and for mine. I try at that moment to remember a
thousand human histories, and fill in the gaps of my books
with these conversations. I wonder if, when all things are quiet and
we are an ancient and recorded history ourselves, someone else will
remember a small weekend in this place. A very simple record of a
simple time.
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